Suddenly

She feels lost in her own life
Treading water just to keep from slipping under
And she wonders if she's where she's supposed to be
Tired of trying to do it right
Her dreams are just too far away to see how steps she's making might be taking her to who she'll be

And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly i am where i'm supposed to be
And after all the tears, i was supposed to be here

She feels locked in her own life
Scared of what she might lose
If she moves away from who she was
And she's afraid of being free
There's a way she knows is right
And she can't feel the things she knows and so each step she's taking
Is a step of faith towards who she'll be

And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly i am where i'm supposed to be
And after all the tears, i was supposed to be here

And here where the night is darkest black
She feels the fear
And the light is farthest back
And through her tears
She can see the dawn
Its coming skies will clear
And the light will find her where she's always been

And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly i am where i'm supposed to be
And after all the tears, i was supposed to be here

Of late I have been feeling a bit down, things don't seem to be changing or getting any better. I feel kinda like I'm stuck in a rut or that I am stagnating. Then the other day I was just listening to some random music and this song came on and it spoke to me. Like the girl in the song I feel like I'm treading water and that I am not getting anywhere. I feel like what I'm doing is not getting me anywhere and that I'm gonna be stuck where I am for ever. But then in listening to this song I have gotten the hope that even when I can't see the bigger picture God is there and everything that is happening in my life is leading where he wants me to be.

The Amazing Race

If you have known me for a while or if you have been reading my blog for a while you probably know that I love The Amazing Race, but if you don't well now you do. Well last I was watching it and was pleasantly surprised to find out that the snowboarding dudes were really strong committed Christians. In one way it wasn't a surprise because they were always so kind and polite to each other and to the other teams. So as the team was setting out for that leg of the race they were talking about how they were Christian and that while they were on the race they were still following him. Then one of the tasks that needed to be completed was the taking down and moving and putting up in another place of a Bhuddist Shrine. While they were doing this Andy and Tommy were saying that it was a little bit hard for them but they had to remember that there is only one God who they follow and that he is stronger than the other Gods. One of the other teams while doing this task was commenting on how they were putting everything back with respect cause they wanted to respect the religion, like they would want someone to respect their religion like the cross if they were visiting their church. But to me this didn't seem as though religion was part of their life. The final thing that mad me really think that that Andy and Tommy were really committed was that there was a stage where they had gotten a bit lost and so they were asking for help, the person that was helping them was taking a long time to come back and Andy and Tommy were saying "We might come in last but whatever happens, happens, If it's God's will then we will finsih here." I just feel that it is really good for Christians, especially committed "life not religion" Christians to be out there and living good lives so that others can see that we are normal and not scary. I think people like Andy and Tommy and Kate from Masterchef do a good thing for Christianity.

Semi Regular Book Review.

Sultana by Lisa J. Yarde

On the night after her wedding, 8 year old Princess Fatima is kidnapped. Her mother Princess Aisha takes her so that she will escape the wrath of the Ashqilula who are angry that Fatima was not married to one of them as had been the custom for the Sultan's family. Fatima witnesses her mother's murder by the Ashqilula who have found them. She is then helped to escape and manages to get back to the palace where she lives. Fatima over time learns to love her new husband, who is ten years older than her, despite many seperations due to the many battles in the civil war between the many groups of Moors as well as the Christians. There are also many intrigues and incidents back at court involving Fatima and her family. This is a really interesting book set in among the Moors during their time in Spain. It was something that I had heard about before but had never really thought about reading before. However I really enjoyed it and it gave me another point of view on something that had happened in the history of this world that I live in. It was a thoroughly enjoyable read and I would recommend it to anyone interested in Historical Fiction and especially European History in particular the history of Spain.

Another episode of The Bill and my life collide.

So another incident occured which made me think of The Bill, but this one was scary. It happened last Wednesday, but the details are a bit hazy since I have left it so long to write about it so instead I will put in a link to where my sister wrote about it.

Over It.

I am so sick of looking for work and all the rejection that has come with it. I am particularly sick of employers either not getting back to me or just sending a form letter and due to the high number of applicants not having the time to give individual feed back.

I do understand that I do not really have a lot of experience and that may be holding me back but how am I gonna get experience if no one will give me a chance. It's the classic catch 22 situation. I know the volunteering that I am doing is helping but it will help but I would love a job now. I just get really frustrated about the whole thing though.

On the up side, I am having a group assessment with IKEA on Friday, which while it is not my ideal job, it is a job.

More Updates.

I have an inteerview Tommorow (Friday 29 July). I would appreciate some prayer for this, As I would really like to get the job.

I am also doing the aforementioned Uni course and I would like some prayer about getting everything done especially if I get the job.

Twitter.

I was resisting twitter, it seems kinda like lots of people just do it and put random things there but I have read a couple blogs about it here so was thinking that maybe I should get a twitter. What do other people think?

Monday Moview and Food on Friday

I will keep these going but I was thinking it other people can add a movie review or recipe or even something else about food that they would like to share just email them to me at crazy_jedidiah@hotmail.com.

Semi-Regular BookReview : Blood Faerie.

BLOOD FAERIE (Caledonia Fae, Book 1) by India Drummond

Eilidh, a Faerie, was exiled, for using forbidden magic, from her world a quarter of a century ago, since then she has been living in Perth, Scotland (Not W.A.). A horrific murder occurs right near where Eilidh is living and she can tell that the murder is carried out by magic. Eilidh tries to get the help of her old countrymen to help defeat whoever has performed this murder and the other ones that are found, while making friends with a policeman who is more than he seems. She also must decide whether she is going to learn more about and use the forbidden magic.

This is a fantastic urban fantasy which I really loved. I have not read much urban fantasy in the past, but I have read quite a bit of other fantasy books, especially Historical fantasy. However the other thing that I loved about this book was the element of crime fiction in it, which is another of my favourite Genres. I really loved how Crime fiction and fantasy were blended together in this book.

I recommend this book to anyone who likes either fantasy or crime fiction or who would love to see a blending of the two genres. I would also recommend it to anyone who loves Scotland.

Further update.

So I have some news for you. I did get accepted into the course I applied for. Woo hoo. However, I was not given credits for the Tafe course I did for the same occupation, which I should have gotten. Anyway, I finally managed to speak to the course co ordinator and he said I should have gotten the credits, and he also said one of the courses I had been enrolled in was not one I should have been enrolled in.
The system at the uni was down for upgrades when I spoke to him, but he was gonna send an email about it and have both things fixed up. He said if if hasn't been fixed up in a couple of weeks to call him again, and he will look in to it. Currently I have not heard anything.

Update.

So I have applied for the Bachelor of Information Studies at CSU Wagga. I am waiting to hear back from them to see if I have gotten in. I am a little bit worried about whether or not I will get in or not.

I also had an interview with Coles at Earlwood yesterday. Not my ideal job, but hey it's a job.

I have also been in contact with St george Christian  School about doing some volunteer work in the library there.

I have some applications for some other positions that I have put in but I'm still waiting to here back from them.

Monday Movies.

THE DISH.

July 1969 the town of Parkes in western NSW was put on the world map for it's involvement in the relay of the footage of the moonlanding. This is the story of Cliff Buxton (Sam Niell) and his colleagues who work at the radio telescope who and coordinated with NASA including having someone from NASA come and work with them. It tells how the men worked together to overcome the obstacles in their way to keep the world informed.

This is a great little Aussie movie that I recommend that you see. I particularly reccomend it if you get Aussie humour. If you don't get Aussie humour then you should probably give it a miss as it will probably go over your head.

Food on Fridays

MACARONI AND CORN PANCAKES.

Serves 4

2 corn on the cob
4 tbsp butter
115 g red capsicums, deseeded and finely diced
275 g dried short cut macaroni
150 ml double cream
25 g plain flour
4 egg yolks
4 tbsp olive oil
salt and pepper
TO SERVE
oyster mushrooms
fried leeks

1. Bring a pan of water to the boil over a medium heat. Add the corn on the cobs and cook for about 8 minutes. Drain thoroughly and refresh under cold running water for 3 minutes. Cut away the kernels onto kitchen paper and leave to dry.

2. Melt 2 tablespoons of the butter in a frying pan over a low heat. Add the capsicum and cook for about 4 minutes. Drain and pat dry on kitchen paper.

3. . Bring a large pan of lightly salted water to the boil over medium heat. Add the macaroni and cook until tender, but still firm to the bite. Drain and lean in cold water until required.

4. Beat the cream with the flour, a pinch of salt and the egg yolks in a bowl until smooth. Add the corn and capsicum. Drain the macaroni, then toss into the corn mixture. Season with pepper to taste.

5. Heat the remaining butter with the oil in the frying pan over a medium heat. Drop spoonfuls of the mixture into the pan and press down to form pancakes. Fry until golden on both sides and all the mixture is used up. Serve with mushrooms and leeks.

Thoughts.

So what I was thinking, I have been doing some regular posting, woot. But I haven't done much just about what has been happening for me.

Basically I am still looking for work.

But what I was really thinking was that I was wanting to do a regular quiz like Ben's. However I don't want it to be the same thing exactly, I want it inspired by but not the same as, at one stage I was thinking of calling it Who, What when Where Why? and having a series of questions starting with one of those words possibly on the same theme for each week. I wanted to know what my readers thought of this idea and if they would partake of such a quiz.

I have also been thinking about doing this course. I feel that it may help to to further my career in the future. I would like to do it but I'm not sure. I don't feel that I am the most academically minded person and I don't feel that I am very good at writing essays which the assessments are. However I did quite well in my Diploma of Library/Information Services at TAFE so I have a basic understanding of the concepts.  I have prayed about it and I'm still not sure. I was originally gonna wait until I got a job to maybe apply but getting a job is taking a while so maybe I should just apply for it. I would like to to know the opinions of my readers.

Monday Movies.

THE PELICAN BRIEF.

Based on a John Grisham novel it is the story of Darby Shaw (Julia Roberts) who is a law student and writes a brief about why two supreme court justices have been killed. She then shows the brief to her lecturer who is also her boyfriend. He then shows it to his friend at the FBI. Shaws boyfriend is then killed in a car explosion and she then turns to the friend at the FBI but he also turns up dead. Shaw then teams up Gray Grantham (Denzel Washington), who is a journalist who is also researching about the deaths of the judges. The two of them then expose who is behind the killings.

It was quite an interesting movie although I found it a bit slow in places and I found the ending a bit contrived. However if you enjoy Detective thrillers especially John Grisham novels then I recommend that you watch it.