Suddenly

She feels lost in her own life
Treading water just to keep from slipping under
And she wonders if she's where she's supposed to be
Tired of trying to do it right
Her dreams are just too far away to see how steps she's making might be taking her to who she'll be

And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly i am where i'm supposed to be
And after all the tears, i was supposed to be here

She feels locked in her own life
Scared of what she might lose
If she moves away from who she was
And she's afraid of being free
There's a way she knows is right
And she can't feel the things she knows and so each step she's taking
Is a step of faith towards who she'll be

And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly i am where i'm supposed to be
And after all the tears, i was supposed to be here

And here where the night is darkest black
She feels the fear
And the light is farthest back
And through her tears
She can see the dawn
Its coming skies will clear
And the light will find her where she's always been

And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly i am where i'm supposed to be
And after all the tears, i was supposed to be here

Of late I have been feeling a bit down, things don't seem to be changing or getting any better. I feel kinda like I'm stuck in a rut or that I am stagnating. Then the other day I was just listening to some random music and this song came on and it spoke to me. Like the girl in the song I feel like I'm treading water and that I am not getting anywhere. I feel like what I'm doing is not getting me anywhere and that I'm gonna be stuck where I am for ever. But then in listening to this song I have gotten the hope that even when I can't see the bigger picture God is there and everything that is happening in my life is leading where he wants me to be.

The Amazing Race

If you have known me for a while or if you have been reading my blog for a while you probably know that I love The Amazing Race, but if you don't well now you do. Well last I was watching it and was pleasantly surprised to find out that the snowboarding dudes were really strong committed Christians. In one way it wasn't a surprise because they were always so kind and polite to each other and to the other teams. So as the team was setting out for that leg of the race they were talking about how they were Christian and that while they were on the race they were still following him. Then one of the tasks that needed to be completed was the taking down and moving and putting up in another place of a Bhuddist Shrine. While they were doing this Andy and Tommy were saying that it was a little bit hard for them but they had to remember that there is only one God who they follow and that he is stronger than the other Gods. One of the other teams while doing this task was commenting on how they were putting everything back with respect cause they wanted to respect the religion, like they would want someone to respect their religion like the cross if they were visiting their church. But to me this didn't seem as though religion was part of their life. The final thing that mad me really think that that Andy and Tommy were really committed was that there was a stage where they had gotten a bit lost and so they were asking for help, the person that was helping them was taking a long time to come back and Andy and Tommy were saying "We might come in last but whatever happens, happens, If it's God's will then we will finsih here." I just feel that it is really good for Christians, especially committed "life not religion" Christians to be out there and living good lives so that others can see that we are normal and not scary. I think people like Andy and Tommy and Kate from Masterchef do a good thing for Christianity.

Semi Regular Book Review.

Sultana by Lisa J. Yarde

On the night after her wedding, 8 year old Princess Fatima is kidnapped. Her mother Princess Aisha takes her so that she will escape the wrath of the Ashqilula who are angry that Fatima was not married to one of them as had been the custom for the Sultan's family. Fatima witnesses her mother's murder by the Ashqilula who have found them. She is then helped to escape and manages to get back to the palace where she lives. Fatima over time learns to love her new husband, who is ten years older than her, despite many seperations due to the many battles in the civil war between the many groups of Moors as well as the Christians. There are also many intrigues and incidents back at court involving Fatima and her family. This is a really interesting book set in among the Moors during their time in Spain. It was something that I had heard about before but had never really thought about reading before. However I really enjoyed it and it gave me another point of view on something that had happened in the history of this world that I live in. It was a thoroughly enjoyable read and I would recommend it to anyone interested in Historical Fiction and especially European History in particular the history of Spain.